hmm. dunno. told u jc relationships dun last. haha. im an optimist but one thing im not optimistic abt are realtionships. not at our age at least... and its like. you have so many "examples" of couples that made it past jc but oh well. one of ur main "examples" has failed you. its qt bad rite to think tt my frens will break up soon... but like not as if ull never say other pple will break up oso. and somehow i dun think urs will last. haha.oops.

ok enough of evil talk. i wanna be like paul :) dunno i was reading yst abt how although paul was a humble man and he was executed and beaten up and jailed and so on and so forth and nero was an emperor who lived in a lavish palace but today pple call thier sons paul and thier dogs nero... and tt really struck me alot. like so wad if men think ur great now. or at least appear to... or u have everything... if ur character sucks den u wun be glorified by God in the end, and that is what truly matters. i really need to start living my life more for God and less for myself!

anyway. i dunno lah. someone asking me for help... and i dun really know him like super well or wad... but hiahz. if i were him i think i would be super stressed abt it so i shld help him :) and anyway yeah. if he learnt something through this den im happy... haha trying not to be too naggy to him tho... but i really hope that he doesnt do it again... cos if he does im not bailing him out anymore!!!

today was such a eventless day... but i better study hard these nxt few days so tt on fri i can enjoy myself more heh. so exciting. 4 more days!!! so unfortunate... like on a yr when my birthday is on a sat i have a levels haha. :s ok nvm. im a happy girl no matter wad day my birthday is!ooooh. and i love coffee now lah. it is saving my life haha... i was totally falling asleep non stop at like noon!!! and i drank coffee den was ok :) nescafe... u rule :) but the bad thing is tt now im super not sleepy... the effects last for so long ah haha. oh wells. mummy going to camp tml... i think ill miss her... i mean i know im like qt bad to her, and i feel really awful whenever i lose my temper at her and she just takes it and dun like scold me back... i wish she would... den i wun feel so bad... but i guess tts the point rite... but yeah. she really loves us alot lah and ive decided to try and be a nicer daughter for her... i guess i was always more a daddy's girl cos like we are more similar in character and stuff... and i always kinda thought my mother was demeaning herself by like serving us all the time... but i realised tt shes doing it cos she loves us and i have no right to look down on her for loving her own family!

i thought i got over it but apparently not